I'm so mad! At just everything...well not everything, but just that things can't just be as they are. Why does he have to do this?! Like, just fuck everything up. What we had was a great, easy going friendship. It still WILL be, if I have anything to say about it. I'm not one to keep things awkward. Yeah, I knew he liked me, but he never acted on it (except for that one time >.<) and that suited me just fine. But now...
And I HAD to tell you. I didn't want to, with all my heart, but I HAD to! Not because I wanted to make you jealous or anything, but I was seriously freaking out and I had to make sure I was doing OK. But I knew you'd take it badly. Who wants to know that their boyfriend/girlfriend/whatever is getting declarations of love? But, you're also my friend, and I tell my friends everything.
I love that you're not some stupid restrictive guy who forces their chick to never contact males unless when necessary. If that were the case, I'd break up with you right then and there. I already have my parents, thank you very much. But I also love that you do get jealous. It means you care :).
Also, I'm insecure, too! HELL YEAH I'M INSECURE. I don't care WHAT you say, it'll take forever to convince me that I'm as perfect as you (and apparently other people) say I am! Of course I get jealous that other girls are always after you, though I'm not surprised. When we were "together" before, that always worried me, that some groupie chick would just attack you and wouldn't be able to help yourself. I mean, hey, if it's on a platter... Plus you're a musician and you're cute. Why the fuck would there NOT be groupies? If you were gay, there would still be chicks hoping to be your drunken mistake. SO, that being said, don't feel bad that you're jealous or insecure. Cuz guess what, honey, I'm right there with ya.
I'm so glad you trust me, because you should. I am proud to say that I have NEVER cheated :D. I always break up with the person if I want to be with someone else, none of this juggling shit I always hear about. I love you and if I didn't, I'd let you know. Best to be honest with someone. I mean, it makes no sense to cheat on someone. What's the point of being in a relationship if you're going to act single? Do both yourselves a favor and break up.
I know you're there and I'm here. But never, EVER forget that I love YOU. No one else. I care and love everyone else in a different way. But for now, I'm yours.
I love you :)

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