And the inner battle rages on

Everything is so jumbled inside my head. All I know for sure is that I need to talk to him. But, do I have everything perfectly articulated beforehand, or do I just charge right in like a blathering idiot? See, I can't even know what I'm trying to say because I'm so conflicted! If I knew what I wanted to say, I would call him and just blurt it out. But my feelings change on a day to day basis. Only the confusion remains constant. Maybe if I just start trying to talk it all out out loud, maybe then will the thoughts begin to formulate and make sense. But there are so many barriers and in the end, I don't know what I'm doing. For someone who's always been the one to give the solid advice, I sure could use some of my own supposed wisdom. Confusion and indecision is truly the worst state to be in.