In reflection

I did it. I finally did it! I have surpassed a major milestone in my life. I have graduated high school.

See, it's funny how we think of milestones as life changers. At least, that's how it always seemed to me. Like, finally getting that puppy or learning to drive. By passing those milestones, it'd signify that you were "growing up" or changing for the better.

In fact, there's not just ONE moment that signifies that "You are now an adult. Enjoy." It kinda just...happens. Those milestones are just markers of time that's slipping away from you until one day you wake up in a nursing home, not being able to recognize yourself in the mirror. It's just depressing to me that I have now done the thing I've sorta dreamed of since I was little and I don't feel a thing except change and overwhelming nostalgia.

I've always been one to cling to past, at least a little. I like taking a break from life and looking at the past and seeing how much has changed. Now I can look back at diary entries from when I was 12 and realize I was a complete idiot. And 10 years from now I will look back at this blog and realize I was a complete drama queen. Life. You gotta love it.

But time moves on and people grow apart or come closer. You meet new people and lose some old ones and everything is just the same, just different. It's all the same patterns just in different circumstance. Milestones are met, you wonder how in the world you got this far, and you move on. Such is life. Great.

It's just crazy to think that in a few years I'll graduate college. Then get a job. And then get married. And then have a kid. And then have some more kids. Then retire. And then see those kids go to college. Then have grandkids. And then have my spouse die. Then I myself will die. Ok, probably not all in that order, but I think I just summed up everyone's life-more or less.

OR I could get into a fatal accident and die a year from now. *sigh*

I should have less free time to ponder and more time being blissful at Disneyland.