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The "Book" of Genesis

The "Book" of Genesis

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Hey, my name is Genesis and this is my "book". This blog will probably be just longer versions of my tweets. Speaking of fail whales, please follow me on Twitter: genesisofDOOM

Friday, October 28, 2011

Pleading

Please don't let the sparkle fade.
Please don't let it be so fast.
Is it because he's far away?
Is it because of the dilemma of You're There, I'm Here?
Don't let it go away.
Because there's an indulgence in getting to say "I love you" every time you leave.
Maybe I'm just in love with being in love?
I don't care,
He's steady; he's constant
Don't let it go away.

Saturday, October 15, 2011

A thought on gender equality

I'm probably easily labeled as a feminist. When I was in 5th grade, I was assigned to portray Abigail Adams in our "Wax Museum", because I was so blatantly feminist. 10-year-old me would always indignantly ask why was it a guy who did so-and-so? Or commenting how girls could do the exact same thing! So my teacher noticed this and accordingly assigned me that. Not gonna lie, I wanted to be Jackie Kennedy, but looking back...good choice Mrs, Hemming.
Anyhoo, I personally am against labeling. And by saying this, I'm probably gonna be labeled as a poser cynical political lesbian or something, but I assure you, I am not (at least one of) those things. I try to be as unique as I can in my environment, but also acknowledge that originality is probably a non-existent concept. I also know when it's appropriate to conform or not. I'm not out to totally alienate myself from human interaction.
But ok, with this in mind, think of the word "feminist". Recently, I've considered it a bit of a taboo word. I only say this because I've seen many "feminists" that just piss me. I'm talking about the women who go ON AND ON about how whatever a man can do, women can do. Then they have an agenda against all men and skirts and a bit of lip gloss now and then. That's too extreme and women like that are just trying to prove a point in the wrong way. Or are battling with the knowledge that, yeah, they're probably lesbian. Either one.
An example of this type of woman: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=zQ271vVpYqM Fast forward to 4:00, unless you want to watch the whole thing. And yes, that was the lady who play Coach Bieste on Glee. She's been in a BUNCH of stuff.
But as I was saying, women are just as capable of what a man can do (and even more--yeah I'm talking about babies), but we just weren't built that way. I've read many articles about how a man's mind works differently than a woman's. It's true. Take anger, for instance. A man will most likely yell and shove. A woman will more likely keep it to herself as the fury builds until she acts on it. Does it make the anger less valid? No. They are just two different way of expressing it.
See, my idea of a feminist is someone who knows the importance of breaking the gender barrier, while knowing that there are differences between a man and a woman. There are double standards for everything. And this can be a good or bad thing.
One example is the pressure on men to be a certain kind of man. I was listening to this talk show with my dad in the car and the female host was talking about common manners that should be put to use again. She was starting off with what men should be expected to do. Right before the commercial break she said something to the effect of "And later, if the men have given up on the idea of being chivalrous, I'll be talking about what men think women should do." When I heard this I was immediately turned off. She was making it sound that by expecting women to abide by some classic manners and "rules", men weren't being chivalrous or were being sexist. I wholeheartedly disagree.
Although I might not classify myself as a "feminist", I AM a huge advocate for equal rights. A person should have the opportunity to have the same rights-and the same hardships and sacrifices-as everyone else. So, while I agree that there are some things men are expected to do, there are also a few things women should do as well. I'm thinking of courteous things or respectful things. People should be treated with respect, no matter the gender or "double standard". A few of these double standards have bothered me since I was little. Like the fact that a man is the lowest scum on the earth if he hits a woman, but a woman is justified in slapping the holy hell out of a man. Why does this bother me? It shouldn't right? I mean, yay, I can't get hit, but I can totally beat people up if I want! Well, it's sort of very sexist when you think about it. A man hitting a woman could be considered like someone kicking a dog. They're weaker, they're defenseless creatures, what did they ever do to you, you monster? So, it's a little degrading when you put it like that. Also, no one should ever justify hitting another person. Yeah, I said that, thus making me a total hypocrite, because I have definitely physically hurt people. STILL, I never said I was perfect. That's just what I think.

Friday, October 14, 2011

Venting

If there wasn't a you
I don't know what'd I do

I'd probably curl up somewhere
And never be able to watch a rom-com again

Life would cease to make sense
My heart would just be a mess

I wouldn't know who to hold, hug, or talk to
Who would I confide in then?

Just the thought of you ceasing to exist
Just POOF gone and with you

The promise of possibilities
The promise of strolls on the beach, ferris wheel sunsets, a walk down the aisle

All the things people in love should do
All you'd take with you

What can I do?
Just stand limply by, and try to make it easy

I just don't want you to leave
I don't want to eventually forget you lived

Because if you go and here I'm to stay
All the memories will go away

Your footprint on this earth will fade
And with it the chance to feel sane

I'll never be the same
You've already changed me enough

Don't go ahead and take a part of me with you
It wouldn't be fair

It would just suck
And would you really do that to me??

After all the promises and fantasies
After all the declarations of love?

Was that all a bust?
All just a big ruse?

I need something to hold on to
When you slip through my hands

Please leave me with something solid
Or better yet, don't leave at all.

In the wake of devastating news...

I wanted to make a list. It seems to me that lists will soon become prominent in my life.

Reasons Why I Love HIM
--A list by Me

1) He makes me laugh
2) He's so talented
3) When he sings and plays guitar, it melts my heart
4) He's crazy smart
5) He's gone through more than I have and I respect that
6) He knows how to put a smile on my face
7) He knows how to make me cry
8) He's made me angry and hurt in a way I've experienced only a few times
9) He's always there for me
10) He's pretty cute ;)
11) He's inspirational
12) He's misunderstood
13) He's one of the most romantic sweethearts you'll have the pleasure to meet
14) He's a total bad ass
15) He is MUCH more fit than I am
16) He's different
17) He is passionate in what he believes in
18) He's experimental
19) He's got this uncanny ability to make me miss him so much
20) He can be so far, yet feel so near
21) His hugs are amazing and I hope all of you get to be hugged by him at least once
22) He can act like no other and is worthy of a million Oscars
23) He's intimidating
24) He's inviting
25) He always seems to understand
26) His laugh is infectious
27) When he closes his eyes, he looks so...amazing. I have no idea how to explain this.
28) He's vulnerable
29) He's a tough motherfucker
30) He writes so poignantly
31) His hands are almost made to be perfectly intertwined with
32) He can use his hands to beat the shit out of you...or play guitar, either one.
33) When he's feeling talkative, he's an awesome texter!
34) He can be very contemplative
35) His smile can light up his whole face.
36) He's got very straight teeth, I don't know why I'm fascinated by this.
37) He's crazy
38) He's inappropriate
39) He's a gentleman
40) He's so predictable sometimes
41) I never know what's going through his head
42) He's complex
43) He's a strong person
44) He knows what's right and what's wrong
45) Has no problem with breaking the rules sometimes ;P
46) Is insecure
47) He can be very cocky
48) His shoulders are a very nice place to rest your head on
49) He's a very beautiful person
50) He's got balls and is very brave
51) I like his hair.
52) Is so aggravating and confusing sometimes!
53) Can get pretty annoying
54) He photographs well
55) He has GREAT taste: in music, movies, clothes (most of the time :P), TV shows, etc
56) He's got great ideas.
57) He's a goofball
58) He's awesome at Parkour and I'm jealous.
59) He's a dreamer
60) He wants to fly and so do I.
61) He makes me feel beautiful and confident
62) He's so awesome that I keep adding more and more to the list, even after I think I'm done
63) He can get me to stay up super late
64) He's all mine <3


I love you. But you already knew that ;)